The way the church handled the internal investigation and treated you during is immoral and unethical, like you said. How terrible. Whoever the leaders were in 2018 when this happened, board and pastoral staff, they all share responsibility since they are charged with protecting the sheep first, not the shepherd. A botched investigation does not protect the sheep at all. Even if the allegations are false (which I do not think they are), church leadership was supposed to facilitate a thorough, INDEPENDENT investigation, not an incomplete, internal one using lawyers paid for by the church, where not even basic trauma informed measures were taken. Church leadership needs to provide answers for this, and an admittance of complete failure.